Tilted Crowns Will Fall

My crown would not stop leaning. My adjustments became perpetuous;I knew it would only be a matter of time before my crown fell . One day I wasn’t enough to catch it’s tilt; it was too late. Now I’m here , staring at all the pieces on the floor. Gold embellishments, crystals and diamonds lye shattered in pieces on the concrete . This is the outcome I get for doing things my way . If only I had kept still and continued along he path that was set before me.

I know what you’re thinking , what could she have possibly done to ruin her crown? Others are probably thinking ,what crown is she talking about? Well, I can answer the first one in this post. It has been said that we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Here’s my testimony to back that up. I was to the point where I got comfortable in losing sight of God. I know you all want to know the juice , but I’m not here to spread my tea. Hopefully, I can help you brew a good pot of your own.When God delivers us from our pasts mistakes,he expects us to not walk back into the same pit he got us out of, but sometimes we do.

I’m the type of person who believes that people are brought into our lives to fulfill a purpose. The problem with this belief is , I often think that purpose is always good . The moment I began to lean on my own understanding , was the moment I lost who I had become. I had spent five years of my life growing; mentally ,and spiritually. All of a sudden I began to fall short. Slowly walking away from who I’d evolved into , and walking into my own desires. I had convinced myself that God wanted this for me , otherwise why would he send it? Queens , let me be the first to tell you,everything that comes to you is not sent by God! There is a unimaginable amount of good that our hearts posses. Most of the time this is where we are attacked .The enemy longs for broken hearts . Broken hearts lead to more people being hurt by the brokenhearted.Your advesary wouldn’t have it any other way. If you’re wrapped up in your sorrow and drowning in your tears , he feels as though he has gotten the best of you.And he will if you allow what he’s doing to consume you. I know most of devils tricks because he tricked me into believing I deserved a broken heart. I needed the lesson which was sent by God .However, the pain it came with was not of my father! At some point I allowed it to devour me , without even trying. I’d weep for hours anticipating that God would just fix the pain by hearing me cry out. I’d lye in the bed all day and let my mind wonder. Constantly thinking ,did I make the right decision by letting go ? How the hell did I get here ?… Again . The more I let my mind wonder , the closer I was to making a decision based off how I felt.

The more I walked in my flesh , the more the spirit released itself from me. I began to ask myself, What could have saved my crown? I prayed for peace, love, and prosperity all the things I thought would make me worthy of keeping my crown. But there was one important thing that I excluded from my prayer; Wisdom. “He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But whoever walks wisely will be delivered”(Proverbs 28:26,The New King James Version). Wisdom will allow you to defeat and not be defeated. If I had prayed for wisdom before being attacked, I would have defeated my adversary just by knowing that I was in a familiar place. A place I escaped long ago.

Queens, I ‘m not ashamed to say I lost my way. I would be ashamed to tell you I haven’t! Just because you are royal it doesn’t mean you don’t make mistakes. My crown may have fallen but I would be a fool to leave it lying there! Queens, be true to who you are. Don’t get caught up in your own desires. Everything God has in store for you is yours. Walk the path that he has set for you. Not your own. Be the kind of woman people are afraid to lose, and not the one who is afraid to lose people. Sit on your throne, and be great!